Design For Life: Why am I awaiting my first child with dread?

Dear Expert,

My partner and I are expecting our first child, and everyone keeps telling me this is the most exciting time of my life. I’m going along with it, but inside I feel a sense of dread and fear. I had a very difficult childhood and there is no doubt in my mind that I don’t have good parenting models to work off. My father left us when I was 16 and I have ...